Aug 2, 2010

Random things

So, it's been a few weeks. What have I been doing? Oh, everything and nothing.

I still mourn my cat. I look for her in her usual places, out of habit. But less and less. I found a clump of her fur and put it in a baggy. It made me cry. I looked online at all of the cats on a local shelters pages, but decided it was too soon. However, I miss having a lap cat. Someday.

The kids are being kids. Jason goes to his grandmother's for tutoring, trying to get ready for second grade. The move really put him behind in school, and although we knew he was struggling a little, we didn't realize how much. Which made me angry at the school and angry at myself, feeling like a failure as a mom. The very hard truth is, I don't like teaching my son. The mother-son dynamic makes it very hard for me to be patient. So, the job is better left to a teacher, for now anyway.

And I have enough on my plate- trust me. I have been working per diem, which is basically on an as needed basis. Well, God finally answered my prayers, and I will convert to a part-time position in about 2 weeks- read benefits!!- but that changes my work schedule. I will work 2 twelve hour shifts a week, whether or not hubby is in town or not. Which begs the question- what about daycare??? Well, of course, that is for me to figure out. It means before and after care for Jason, all day care for Adam. And then there's the problem of the hours- NOTHING is open at 6 in the morning, when I need to leave. And the same for the evening. I won't pick them up until about 7:30-8. The stress is killing me. it's no wonder my IBS is so bad right now.

And work- love the job, but the assignments are heavy. And, being new, I am still constantly asking how to do things, you know, the 6 month curve.. Oh, and one of my patients coded and died the other day. Yeah, my third or fourth shift off orientation.... I had lots of help, and that the nature of the business, but seriously... can I just catch a break?

Don't even get me started on the myriad of other things- the hen that quit laying, the rotted boards of the porch, including a footer, husband out of town for two weeks at a time, the lawn mower broke down for the third time this summer...

BUT, there have been good things. My mom, sister Christine, her boys and my niece just came for a nice visit. We cleaned up, took boxes to the attic, and painted the laundry room. We spend a glorious day at my in-laws place on Taylor Pond, parked on the dock.

We have been spending time with our new friends the Hill's. Hanging out, bbq-ing, roasting marshmallows. J. took Jason out fishing and swimming all day yesterday. Both boys got to ride their bikes a lot- they have pavement over there. LOL.

My brother-in-law J was just here from Detroit. We had a great time, good dinner, fun. His sister, also a J, just blew in from NYC with her BF in tow. We had a nice evening with them yesterday.

We picked and ate all of our fresh peas- note to self, plant A LOT more next time. The zucchini plants have huge blooms. The tomato plants are full of green tomatoes- or apples, as Adam calls them. Our apple trees are full of apples, more than we'll ever need, which is a blessing.

My friend Angela took amazing pictures of the kids the other day= priceless.

So, that's my past couple of weeks in a nutshell. It's been both good and bad. But, isn't that what life is about? I hope you come back to visit often, and I'll be posting some reno pictures soon!

hugs- Lee


Karen said...

Hang in there Lee. A new job is always stressful and then add the daycare issue to it. Besides that you work in such a high stress job, it is a wonder any nurse lasts very long. As they say this too shall pass my friend. Big Hugs!!

Dorthe said...

Dear Lee, So stressfull a time for you, --I so hope you find some day care for your kids, where they likes to be.
Ofcourse it is not eaysy to start in a new place, so you just have to tell yourself,it is all normal, not knowing all-and everything around there in the beginning.
I wish you all the best with your new life,dear.

Gigi said...

Lee - wow, it does sound like things have been stressful and busy. It will all work out some how, some way. Just keep plugging along.

Anne - Fiona and Twig said...

Oh, my heart hurts for you as you mourn the loss of your kitty. They really do take a piece of our hearts with them.

I'm keeping you in my prayers as you face each new day, my friend!



It will get better--you know that--trust in yourself that you are doing the right thing for you and your family!!!!! I'm glad you got a small break. I'm about to take one myself. take care girlie!!
xoxoxo miss you.

Cassie Shella said...

Sounds like you've been busy! Hang in there with the work thing- and remember to breathe... Glad you are doing okay regarding your kitty. Hope you have a very Blessed week.

Tam said...

HI Lee

I can't teach my boys either! So it is not just YOU! I have tons of MOMMY GUILT about it. The Boys seem so strong willed about everything these days.

Well I will be sending good thoughts your way about the daycare situation...something will come up I am sure.