I find myself so blessed with a great husband and healthy, adorable children. But sometimes it doesn't feel like enough. Or maybe it is, but I need other things too. I need to be myself. To dig in dirt, read a book, paint and slop and play- uninterrupted.
Uninterrupted. Oh, what a luxury. I think it is hard for my family to understand sometimes. Hard for them to understand that I chose to be a mom, choose to stay at home a lot, choose this life- but that'd I'd like to have down time too. Of course, rationally we know we all need it, but to actually get it is like pulling teeth.
I need it like I need water and food. I need it to stay sane, to keep from screaming at my kids. I need to have it without feeling guilty. Without being told- well, I never had it.
I have ideas bouncing around in my head that I have to get out. I need time to create. It relaxes me on a very deep level. I know many of you out there understand it. Wish you were closer!
Hopefully, today will give me some time. How about you?